Relationships. They are weird…. They are cool, but they are over-publicised by movies, tv shows, music, media. And, truth be told, I really think that while you are still young they can be quite over-rated!!
Man, when I was a kid I NEVER would have thought that I would still never have had a serious boyfriend by the age of 19! Movies, books, tv shows always made me think that by the time I was 14 I would be super cool and fashionable and have boyfriends alllllllll the time! WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT!!!! I remember I was quite heartbroken when I turned 15 and had none of that to account for.
But, at the same time, a lot of other people were going through the same thing as me. It wasn’t just me that had high expectations of teenhood! Sitting, waiting, wishing for my epic summer adventures involving boys, boys and more boys! A lot of my friends and peers at school all seemed to have a similar dream, even though it was totally out of our grasp at that age. And I’m glad! I can’t imagine what it would have been like, me being in a relationship with a guy so young!! I would have given part of myself to soooo many guys who wouldn’t even care about me now!! And no I’m not talking about sex (I know that ran through your mind when you read that, dont deny it o.O), I’m just talking about that piece of their heart that girls give to their boyfriends/crushes/flings (kisses, snuggles, whispers of sweet nothings) even though they deny it!
To be quite honest, I’ve only been kissed – properly kissed – once in my life….. and I was 18…….. Yes, I was sweet sixteen and never been kissed ;) But I’m not happy or relieved by my kiss! I would rather be sweet nineteen and never been kissed tbh :P I’m not saying that the kiss itself was disappointing but that I am disappointed in myself for wasting something as special to me as a kiss on a guy that I now barely ever see, let alone talk to!! My lips! My kiss! Wasted on a guy who has probably forgotten about it coz he’s had so many….
Even today, though my best friend now has a boyfriend (as of two days ago :D :D) and so do most of my friends, I don’t need one. Even when my friends say, “Guuurrrl, you need a man in your life,” its ok, coz I really don’t. When I find one, terrific! But until then I will enjoy spending my precious time reflecting by myself, chilling with my best friend watching chick flicks and eating ice cream, studying hard so I can do well at uni and joking around with all my friends – without making anyone jealous. I’m not saying that you can’t do this stuff once you’ve found your other half, I’m just saying that you are only single for a small percentage of your life, and I’m gonna rock it out while I still can :D
It is quite crazy to think that there is a guy out there whom I will one day be married to…. And who knows if I have met him already or will meet him one day and know he is the one? Or if he is that guy that always gets on my nerves, or the one who right now I think is way too cool for me. Or maybe it will even be the guy that I can talk to and laugh with all the time but only see him as a friend right now. But the awesome part is… dah dah dah daaaaaaah…. I don’t need to worry about finding him right now :) if we are meant to be it will all work out in the end!
